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flashbulb memory

by orchid mantis

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sunsetshore This album is truly one of the most beautiful things Ive ever listened to and it is what got me into all of this music. Also one of the best investments in my life was the cassette. Favorite track: reoccurring.
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comradam☭ Beautiful release by highly regarded Atlanta musician, Orchid Mantis. Flashbulb Memory functions as a deeply personal, yet decisively ephemeral and obscured interpretation of the nature of memory and the flow of time within our lives. Highly Recommended! :^)) Favorite track: these things won't happen again (time stands still).
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richhomiekenan After reading artist's description of what the album means to him and then re-listening to it I feel more for the somber tones of this album. The almost distant echoing vocals throughout remind me of memories of days past, and this album executes perfectly how it was supposed to. Favorite track: leaving.
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John Hernandez Beautiful music, orchid mantis is what everyone needs in their life! Favorite track: these things won't happen again (time stands still).
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fog 04:27
way, way after we left you on your own you called, and i didn't answer i just couldn't bring myself to move just, just like candles everything is melting away if you start to feel dizzy just fall over, it's okay and the fog rolls in i am lost in it drifting hopeless i get lost in it lie, lie here with me as our memories start to blur i, i can't remember if it was ever any better
holding it over our heads i know i deserve it everything always gets old lacking a purpose to serve nothing i need the still, the seed all of your dreams come back to me i've lost your name this place, your face nothing the same i miss everything "...feel the colors, hear the sounds, feel the wind, notice the sky..."
it's silent on the shore whatever you've endured beneath the trees you fall asleep somewhere we've been before you know to follow me i see the memories meet you're always here you reappear you follow what you fear
leaving 04:19
sunk into a darker room i felt myself leaving myself but it doesn't matter at all and i won't be there when you fall nothing means anything save me somehow cause i don't know how soon you will be leaving me i take it back i take it i take it back i take it in a dream i floated away from you and all this time i missed the signs but it's over now the fires are all out
reoccurring 04:22
empty houses and empty parking lots i lost myself in something that was gone floor collapses, walls decay entire lives forgotten and we don't stay the same and you know it's all of the time you know just what you'll find things reoccurring and i am certain i know i won't feel this way again you are bleeding into my daydreams intruding quietly, i don't know what it means if we collapse and memories decay entire lives forgotten can we just stay the same
we stayed in your room you'd been up since last moon i'm trying not to hear you sinking feelings, i just wanna sleep and the days get long only after everybody's gone i want you to reach into my mind i wanna lose myself in your light say goodbye sometime
aizu forest 01:40


The oldest track on Flashbulb Memory, Leaving, was written on an upright piano in my friend’s old house sometime during the summer of 2014. As I worked further on it throughout the year, it became deeply associated with my memories of that place. Now, that house is up for sale, and I’ll probably never step foot in there again. In a few years it will look very different, maybe unrecognizable. This past year and a half, as everyone I knew left for college, I stayed behind working on these songs; but whenever I tried to write about these more-recent experiences, I found myself painting with broad, impressionist brush strokes. In nostalgic fits I revisited old lyrics concerning my most vivid memories, all of them taking place in the old house. I could already feel those moments slipping from present to past, forgoing their urgency. There was a haziness in my recollection that I hoped I could capture, assembling fragments of memories that recurred ceaselessly in my dreams, each time growing more distant and pure. I don’t remember how it felt back then anymore – not truthfully at least, but these songs are about how I’m going to think it felt.

The cover of Flashbulb Memory is a film photograph I shot in high school while on vacation with my family. From our balcony we could see all the way down to the shoreline; the houses all stopped far before the sand, except for one lone house right up next to the waves. I don’t have any photographs of the old house before they moved and it went up for sale, but when I picture it in my head, it’s a similar image: The house is distant and obscured, surrounded by vast swaths of dark space. The lights are lit perpetually, but no one is home anymore.

Originally released on cassettes via Track & Field Records

Re-issued on cassettes via Z Tapes (ZT131)


released December 30, 2016

all songs written & recorded by Thomas Howard.
infinite thanks to Kate, Lanny, Joseph, Neil, and all other friends who helped make this everything it is ❁


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